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Saturday, 12 October 2013

The unsent letter # 4

 The prompt for this fortnight is to write a letter to :
 Your current love/ spouse/ crush or Your ex-love/ spouse / crush.  I am writing a letter to my spouse, on the completion  of our 54th marriage anniversary.He is ill these days.I am just pouring out my feelings of pain.

 My dear  D,
                   How strange it feels to write a letter, of all people, to you! We are always together.Why this letter? Last week we completed 54 years of  married life. Do you remember our first meeting? Both of us were feeling  quite lost. The only realisation was that we loved each other, but were  perhaps  hesitant to say so in our very first encounter with each other. In fact, during our courtship, neither of us uttered the three words 'I love you', even though we felt our heart pulsating for each other.
 I remember that I was very nervous, when soon after our marriage, Chechi and her family were staying with us. I had absolutely no idea of cooking and it was the first day that we were to have dinner at home. Mummy had sent her cook to  train me in kitchen matters. I told  Bir Singh,the cook to prepare Dinner. I advised him to boil one kg. rice. He told me that it would be too much,I told him  not to argue with me and do as directed.  On the Dinner table every body had a laugh at my foolishness.We were only five of us and  the quantity of rice was for the double the number.I had really felt embarrassed and controlled  my tears with great difficulty. Chehi still recollects that incident and  teases me. I don't think that you remember such incidents. 
                Yesterday, while cleaning the almirah I  found an old photograph of both of us.You remember , we  just walked inside a studio and took this photograph.Both of us look so different then. I found so many other photographs. Can you imagine I even saw our wedding invitation card. It was so nostalgic to come across such old papers!
               
 Today in  a reminiscent frame of mind, also recollected that every evening we went out, and used to return late.Poor Bir Singh, used to wait for Dinner and we very coolly used to tell him to throw away  whatever was prepared. We had no sense of responsibility.We were so much lost in each other. I can never forget when R, your brother came to stay with us during his vacations,both of you finished twenty paranthas and asked for more. It was very amusing.
How happy we were when we became parents!  Today that cute little' baby' is a fifty three old responsible Chartered Accountant and the second 'baby' is a senior Doctor!Both are happily married. How proud we are of our four grandchildren. How time flies. On our golden jubilee anniversary  the children had arranged a surprise party for us. Such love, regard  and affection means so much for us, when both of us are in the evening of our life!
           
                               
 Remember, this photo was taken on our golden jubilee anniversary?  Today, when you are ill, my mind is full of anguish seeing you in pain. I can feel your pain in my heart. I can not  bare my heart and grief in your presence. I know I do not have the heart to post this letter to you.I am only putting my innermost  feelings in this piece of paper.
 Love you always.
  Your own ,
   Begum

ps Sorry for the dim photographs


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38 comments:

  1. Wow! 54 years of togetherness is indeed a great celebration. That too yours being a love marriage. Congratulations Usha!
    One can see how much you love each other, and also how much your children and grand children care for you,
    I am sure your husband would soon get well. Our best wishes to both of you!

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    1. Thank you Rama.Thanks for the kind words.

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  2. Belated Happy 54th Wedding Anniversary... because of you and the love the both of you have for each other .. he is having the will power to live.. and may God bless you always with good health and happiness..

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    1. Thank you Alef. Thanks for the wishes.

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  3. Best wishes to both of you from me and Bina

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    1. Thank you and Bina for your wishes.

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  4. Such a sweet note! Hearty congratulations to both of you. Wishing you many more years of togetherness filled with happiness and health! :)

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  5. That was a touching letter bringing out the close bond between you two.My prayers and wishes for his good health and happiness for you both for many years to come.

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  6. Thanks KP for your kind words and wishes.

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  7. Usha Ma'm , Hats off to you for that wonderful letter ! Really touching ! All prayers for Sir's health.
    Orayiram varshangal orumichu jivikkan aaamsakal ! :)
    and prarthanakal :)

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  8. Thank you Sreeja for your sweet comments and wishes. Btw, Sreeja, I am not a Malayali. I can understand the language very well, but can not speak fluently. You may like to know about my family from my blog "why do i write" dated 7th June 2013.

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  9. Speedy recovery to Menon Sir.

    54 golden years of togetherness! This unsent letter is so full of warmth and love.

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    1. Thank you Kalpana for your words of appreciation.

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  10. Been few days that I stopped here...you had me in tears with the unsent letter..it was so touching...Wishing him to get well soon and may you celebrate many more Happy Anniversaries together...lots of love, Usha ji..

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    1. Thank you Latha for your touching remarks.

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  11. Forget the golden anniversary and the hype of that. I feel the gold is the life of togetherness which you and your husband lived together. I guess, to price it in relation to gold may be unfair to the life that you had. Certain things can be priced nevertheless but cannot be valued. Wish you both good luck- good health.

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    1. Thank you Anil. You are correct I am not at all charmed by gold. Golden anniversary refers to the number of years.

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  12. that was so so touching.....may you both continue to share ur love always.

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    1. Thank you, Titli. for your kind comments and wishes.

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  13. Usha ma'am you opened your heart in this unsent letter and could see the strong bond you share with Mr. Menon. Your love will make him hale and hearty!Praying for his speedy recovery.

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    1. Thanks Sunita for such sweet comments

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  14. Congratulations mam on your golden jubilee. Prayers and good wishes for Menon Sir.

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    1. Thank you Jini, for your prayers and best wishes.

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  15. that was a heart-touching post,madam.I remember your hubby's enduring guest posts which gathered reverence for him and admiration for his writings. 54 years-a great thing and may you have many more healthy togetherness by the mercy of the Almighty..

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    1. Thank you Sarala.I showed my husband your observations about his posts. He is really happy and wants me to convey thanks to you.

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  16. Warmest wishes to you and your husband Ushaji:) Such bonds grow stronger over time and richer too, and no words can describe their beauty and meaning fully.

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  17. Reshma,thank you very much for your wishes.

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  18. Your love shines through in this post. Congratulations on 54 years of married bliss. Wishing you many more healthy years of togetherness. Have faith ma' am, he will get well soon. Stay blessed:)

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    1. Thank you Asha for your words of encouragement and wishes.

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  19. Wow! 54 years together is quite a lifetime. I wish you many more years of togetherness. And I pray to the Almighty to help him recover fast. May God bless you both with good health and happiness. :-)

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    1. Thank you Rekha for your wishes. Welcome to my site.

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  20. Very poignant and touching emotions for the love of your life Usha, may God be with you always and bless you both, my wishes and prayers for him to get better soon.

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  21. 54 years of togetherness!Wow! That's what one call love and I wonder why love is not made like in the yore days. Our generation has so much to learn from you, Usha-ji:) I enjoyed reading this sweet and beautiful tale of love, romance and togetherness. May both of you have many more years to go, young lady:) Belated happy birthday, ma'am.

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    1. Thank you Vishal.The problem with today's generation is lack of tolerance.Thank you Vishal for your wishes.

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  22. What a heartfelt sweet and loving letter. Wishing you many many more beautiful anniversaries.
    dropping by from the letters prompt.

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